in my eyes you were mine.
I’ve been TRYING to do my homework consistently every night, but i always find myself in the dark checking the time to find that it’s 3AM and I’m too lazy to finish the rest of my work so i just fall back asleep. oh it’s coo, just sleep ! haha
so lately I’ve been like… torn between the things that I want. The things that I let go of came back, but now that I have something else in my hands I’m a little stuck between letting it go.. But I’ve been thinking a lot lately and I found out that there’s more reasons to let go than to hold on. I’m tired of getting hurt, but I also find joy because I’m learning. Then again I realize that the reason why it’s so difficult to give up is because it was the closest thing to make me feel special. I fell for the physical things, it’s true. but FREAK i should have listened when they said not to ask about the past because it’s going to make me insecure. I don’t show it, but deep down i’m definitely insecure right now. ahaha. but the truth set me free. You told me you miss your past and that was just the answer i needed to let me know wsup. It’s also kinda hard trying to accept the fact that everyone knows what you are. I tried my best to squeeze that out, but it didn’t get through.
Maybe you’ll change for the better one day. I’m tired of thinking that it’s me who can do that.
